hi hi! welcome! i’m so happy you’re here. i hope you’re comfy + cozy.
i’m alexa dexa (they/them) and i’m so joyful and honored to wander with you into crip ritual realms.
i’m a sick mad crip xXgrandmacoreXx songspell crafting and casting sound witch. my skin is white with light olive tones, my golden brown hair reaches down to my thighs, and my deep brown eyes squinch up with the push of my plush cheeks when i’m smiling. when i laugh, the echoes really reverberate.
my approach to rituals + readings recognizes and values the wisdom we each carry and the agency we have in connecting to our creative power and infinite potential. i believe we are miracles to be celebrated. every breath, every stillness, every wondering + wanting + waiting, every dream building on the next. all of it magic. all of you <3
i divine with oracle//composition decks i dream into existence. my decks share cosmic crip insights and double as indeterminate graphic scores, which guide the lyric + sonic direction of my songspell crafting + casting. composed to uphold folx through uncertainty + tumult, my sacrosanct oracle//composition deck offers space to assess, access, cultivate, claim, and share our innate resources. my dreaming our futures + embodying our dreams oracle//composition deck shares dream maps for finding and anchoring ourselves through crip chaos. all of my readings + songspells offer portals for dreaming our most glorious dreams into existence as we shape + reshape our own nonlinear paths.
i coined the term “songspell” to describe intentions holding space for dream possibilities that manifest transformation as we listen deeply to ourselves. the magic distilled in my songspells is tuned to the vibe and frequency of obliterating the insidious objectives of systemic oppression aimed at keeping us helpless, drained, “productive”, and compliant for the purposes of increasing capital for the wealthiest few to the detriment of our global interdependent survival and joy. i whole-heartedly discard the notion that our disabled body-minds are less than/disposable. my songspells + crip rituals validate + uplift our inherent crip brilliance + belonging.
to craft songspells, i translate the alphabet letters of my invocations into music with aleatoric composition systems i create. using sound as a source for shaping change, i cast songspells with my voice, my beloved toychestra to rival a playpen, found sounds, pre-programmed electronic sequences, live electronic processing in maxmsp, and live coding in tidal cycles.
all of my rituals + readings take place virtually as a form of communal care and collective safety during the ongoing pandemic. my craft is rooted in a queer, trans, crip positionality that honors and uplifts the principles of disability justice.
all of my offerings are available by sliding scale as a form of economic justice. please pay what feels right for you and your current financial situation. the high end of the scale is the true cost of my services. if you can pay the high end, please do. this allows others to access my rituals + readings. if you are on the low end of the scale, this magic is just as much for you. if you’re disabled and want to barter/exchange art/skill share, email alexa dexa at [email protected].
i’d love to honor any access needs you may have for our session. after you book, i will send you a zoom meeting invitation. during our time together, i will serve as your access doula as i guide you through our remote crip ritual. zoom’s auto-generated captions will be enabled in the language of your choosing. you are welcome to bring companions for added support. all access requests can be shared as you book your session. questions +/or feedback regarding accessibility are welcome and encouraged. contact alexa dexa at [email protected].
should you prefer a more asynchronous approach via email, text message, voice message, or another format of your dreaming, this is absolutely a possibility! when scheduling, just select the date you’d like for our first correspondence, let me know your preferred communication method, and i will connect with you accordingly.
for tender invitations to my future collective remote crip rituals, join my crip ritual invite list.
a reading + a ritual
gain insight into which resource to cultivate and rely on for this moment in time with an oracle reading using my sacrosanct oracle//composition deck. based on the resource that surfaces, we’ll craft a ritual tailored to your goals and needs with ingredients you have on hand for your use alone in integrating your chosen resource into your routines and cultivating its power as yours to access and grow with.
$55 – $75 ● 30 min
$75 – $95 ● 60 min
so i’m definitely a ✨dreams hold all our pastpresentfutures and all our fantasy inbetweens and access to our ancestors and other realms and to our waking friends whom we meet in dreams for relaying informations and for many kinds of communications and unearthings and learnings ✨ kind of a dreamer. in a dream reading with me, we’ll delve deeply into the meanings and messages surfaced by your dreams and share practices for deepening your dreamwork. bring recollections of your recent dreams for further investigation and interpretation and/or gain insight into your dreams for yourself with an oracle reading using my dreaming our futures + embodying our dreams oracle//composition deck. by the end of our time together, you’ll have a more expansive understanding of your journeys through the dream realm and super dreamy guidance for dreaming your most glorious dreams into existence.
$55 – $75 ● 30 min
$75 – $95 ● 60 min
explore the range of possibility and potential for your personal magic within a safe and grounded framework of guidance and support. you are magic. embracing this truth, we’ll work together to unearth your magical trajectories and dream visions as well as the resources, tools, and practices – those you already have and those you can choose to cultivate – to aid you in your magical workings. highlighting your internal wisdom and power, we’ll map a path of magical embodiment and manifestation that is in symbiotic alignment with your needs and dreams as they make themselves known to you.
$55 – $75 ● 30 min
$75 – $95 ● 60 min
call in the resources you need to guide your way forward as we co-craft a songspell that holds space for your infinite possibility. come knowing what you’d like to be resourced around or we can pull a resource-based oracle card from my sacrosanct oracle//composition deck to share some insight. bewitch yourself, manifesting transformation as you listen deeply to yourself, while i cast your songspell with vocals, an orchestra of toy instruments, and live electronic processing in maxmsp over zoom.
$75 – $95 ● 60 min
dreaming your future + embodying your dreams: a dream ritual
immerse yourself in pure cosmic potential as you are guided through a ritual for dreaming your future and embodying your dreams. come knowing the themes you’d like to dream on, or gain insight with a resource-based oracle reading using my dreaming our futures + embodying our dreams oracle//composition deck. be lulled into lush and vibrant dream space with a songspell for sweet dreams and safety that will morph and evolve to support the duration of your dreaming. as you’re eased back into the present, pull your dreams from the ether with you and together, we’ll make a mapping of the waking possibilities of your dreams and your power to embody them.
$75 – $95 ● 60 min
$105 – $125 ● 90 min
tell me all about your nightmares – the ones that scare you awake at night and your living, waking ones too – and i’ll wrangle them right on up and set you up with new dreams to dream! a cozy crip dream reading with my dreaming our futures + embodying our dreams oracle//composition deck will give a sweet lil dream to dream on, a gorgeous lil guide into the dream realm of your choosing, and wondrous nighttime joys. then, i’ll put your nightmares to work to help your dreams blossom at night by translating your nightmares into music for you to fall asleep and dream to. in their new lush dreamscape form, your nightmares will get to remain close and more companionable than ever as they churn through their energies both harmlessly and very helpfully by opening a dream portal for you to enter so you can dream your most glorious dreams into existence.
$75 – $95 ● 60 min
to gift rituals + readings or to inquire about booking alexa dexa as a reader + ritual leader for remote events, email alexa at [email protected].
the sacrosanct oracle//composition deck is a collection of resource-based oracle messages that double as indeterminate graphic scores. composed to uphold folx, especially queer and trans folx, through uncertainty + tumult, the cards offer space to assess, access, cultivate, claim, and share resources to dismantle the binary, gender-based cultural conditioning and violence of patriarchal power structures as we forge our own paths forward.
sacrosanct holds 50 hand-drawn and digitally colored oracle//composition cards measuring 3.5” x 5.75” and an altar card featuring a spell for synchronicity. an accompanying 108-page, hand-written and risograph-printed guidebook presents methods for resourcing yourself and musically reading the cards to invoke songspells (intentions that hold space for infinite possibility translated letter for letter into musical phrases that manifest transformation through the process of deep listening).
accessing music as transformative care with the sacrosanct oracle//composition deck does not require any formal musical training. all you need is any mechanism for generating sound and a connection to experimentation and play.
depicted through small spell poems and closed-eye crayon drawings turned glitch art, dreaming our futures + embodying our dreams oracle//composition deck is a collection of 55 dream maps sharing my dreams for myself through chronic illness and madness and offering pathways to embodying these dreams, both a coping mechanism for feeling lost in my bodymind and for a future where i will surely feel lost in my bodymind again. a way to find and anchor myself through chaos.
each dream map serves both as a divinatory oracle, a tool for being deeply with ourselves and our magic, and as an indeterminate graphic score, the sounding out of which (with any mechanism for generating sound and a connection to experimentation and play) becomes its own dream portal and songspell for fruition.
in addition, each deck also includes a dream spell altar card, 5 cards with blank faces offering space for drawing your own dream maps and adding them to the deck for your own personal divining purposes, and a guide card suggesting methods for reading dream maps as graphic scores, a practice available to anyone and everyone – no prior musical experience needed.
what better way to divine our pastpresentfutures than by dreaming our wildest, most fantastical, glorious, and boundless dream pastpresentfutures into existence for ourselves?
an accompanying 66-page, hand-written dreaming our futures + embodying our dreams crip ritual dream workbook, risograph-printed by Endless Editions, shares thoughts on the importance of dreaming, tips for accessing the dream portal and receiving the wisdom within, a spell for dreaming our most glorious dreams, ample space for recording your dreaming and the meanings and messages that meet you, and suggestions for gently guiding yourself towards embodying your dreams and for being your own compass and cartographer.
may we dream big, dream frivolously, dream idly, dream idyllically, dream steadily with the weight of our lives, and may we always know our dreams as possible realities.
i use the term “crip” to describe my disabled identity/culture. crip is a reclaiming of the ableist slur “cripple”. some, but not all, members of the disability community choose to reclaim this word as a form of disabled pride. for me, a crip ritual is a little portal into gorgeous and magical shared space where all who enter can experience belonging and “access intimacy”, a term created by disability justice advocate Mia Mingus to describe “the way your body relaxes and opens up with someone when all your access needs are being met”.
on radical inclusivity
as a sick + mad + disabled person, i am struggling to survive ableism in a society that deems my immunocompromised + mad bodymind disposable as this pandemic persists. as national and local safety guidelines cease to protect disabled populations at high risk for covid-19, co-creating space for being in community while in the bath or in bed, for prioritizing comfort, for knowing belonging, and to be held in mutual support is a survival mechanism for me and a lifeline for my isolated disabled community, especially as others diminish or abandon options to engage remotely. it is equally an extension of gratitude for disabled kinship and potent resistance against the hyperproductivity of capitalism in favor of self-preservation and crip joy.
my crip rituals channel interdependence: an understanding that our survival is collective, the sustainability of our lives is intertwined, the full breadth of our joys and sorrows are felt across time and space, shared in more than just our own bodyminds. i’m channeling interdependence and do-it-together methodologies instead of an ableist independence that says we shouldn’t and don’t need to rely on each other for support and safety. i know my safety is intricately folded into the safety of this earth, the safety of those around me, and the safety of those i may not know at all. i welcome you to channel interdependence with me as we continue to crip the pandemic by being in community without putting ourselves or anyone else at risk.
as a sick mad crip, i am dedicated to the accessibility of my projects and gatherings as a critical step towards creating radical inclusivity in our community. questions +/or feedback regarding accessibility are welcome and encouraged. contact alexa dexa at [email protected].
“The sliding scale is a tool that allows for a product or service to be obtained at multiple price points based on the circumstances of the purchaser.
The sliding scale represents the idea that financial resources, including income, are not and should not be the only determining factor in whether or not someone can access services/care/etc.” – Worts + Cunning
“This was such a profoundly wonderful, healing experience, and it was so great to be able to do this right after going through a tough time. I can’t tell you how much I appreciate this wonderful project. I feel lucky to have gotten to participate in this with you.”
“I can’t tell you how freeing and wonderful working with you has been.”
“Alexa’s approach was individualized, inclusive, sustainable, engaging and collaborative. The language was balanced, integrated, holistic, simple, genuine multidisciplinary with a simplified and standardized method.”
“Working with Alexa got me musically motivated after a long period of stagnation.”
“The ambience was super welcoming, supportive, positive, friendly and helpful, inclusive of all levels, not intimidating or judgey.”
“appreciating the playful quality of the practice we did, hope to approach sound work with more play and less perfectionism :)”
“it’s really helpful to me to have a variety of creative spaces like yours so if i need/want/have to stay home I still have interaction.”
“Honestly, I love your sessions so much! They are so warm, inviting, playful, and informative… equally calming and invigorating at the same time. Thank you for setting such a great space for sharing your expertise.”
“I really appreciate that level of accessibility and am so grateful to you for providing it. Thank you so much for your intention and work in creating this!”
“This offering is a great experience, so hands on, a real human connection in a Covid-aware space, an accessible space and a creative space!”